Let's do this

It’s July and this is the month my website goes live! First and foremost, WELCOME to my website! Can you believe this? If i’m honest, i’m feeling a lot of emotions. I’ve wrestled with posting this website, not because i’m embarrassed by it; I truly think it’s a pretty accurate expression of me. However, it makes me feel incredibly vulnerable and exposed. I know that the entertainment industry is full of ups and downs and more downs. But, being an actor has been a long time dream of mine and I want to commit to the whole thing. So, my hope is that this space becomes a place where I can keep you informed of this experience and be honest with the hard times; because let’s face it, I probably won’t be posting about the hard times as often on social media.

This is part of a big goal for me and I want to get better at following through with things, regardless of fear or negative voices that try and pull me away. I must thank LTP Creative for designing this winsome website and also to my friends who’ve given me feedback and/or lended their services in some way. Thank you for reading this and for taking an interest in my journey. Let’s do this!

-SS

Sweet Storm

It’s Memorial Day, May 29th, to be exact and i’m writing this at 8:14am. My little Brooklyn apartment is filled with the natural light from the overcast day right outside the window. The only sounds are the birds chirping and the oil diffuser, infusing the space with smells of lavender and lemongrass. I started to turn on some music and then decided against it. Peace and quiet in New York often feels like a miracle so i’ve decided to lean into it. This is my morning.

As for the rest of the day, I’m helping a friend move this afternoon come rain or shine and there is always work to be done on my scene assignment from class. It is my last week of class and come Friday evening, the two year program will conclude. Ya’ll, what a whirlwind. First of all, I survived...it was touch and go for a hot second as to whether i’d stay in it (thank God I did). Secondly, it’s still a bit surreal to think back on sitting in whatever cubicle or office in Nashville, longing for an opportunity like this but it seeming like too big of a risk and definitely not wise, financially. I am a New York trained actor! It’s a dream that came true with a lot of hard work and emotion. My scene partner this semester is one talented man and nothing short of a gift to act opposite to; he’s a natural. Plus he’s somehow found the balance of thick skin and kindness. I want to be more like him. Our first scene was from The Glass Menagerie. I wrote about it in the last entry and stand by it being my favorite Maggie Flanigan experience, revealing what i’m capable of as an actor. From there, we received another love-themed scene, only this time it didn’t end with heartbreak. It was a scene from the Brian Friel play, Translations. It takes place in Northern Ireland between a rural farm girl and a British Lieutenant. I met with a voice coach to work on the Irish dialect. The scene required us both to be incredibly open, as we were falling in love. I cried a lot. The emotional trust is necessary to the scene and to let my imagination go there was a bit overwhelming. However, it was fun too! I built my character around Maria from The Sound of Music and Andie from Pretty in Pink. For the love, I used several personal moments plus the final scene from Anne of Green Gables where Anne tells Gilbert she loves him (swoon) and when Maria and Captain Von Trapp dance together in the courtyard. There is a look she gives him at the end of the dance that just feels real. That’s what I wanted to capture. One of the big moments each semester at the Maggie Flanigan Studio is when Maggie herself comes in to teach/critique. Here is a little excerpt about her from the Meisner Technique Wiki page:

After 18 years as William Esper’s* most distinguished teacher both at Rutgers’ MFA acting program and in his NYC classroom, Maggie made the decision to open her own studio in NYC. Located in the heart of NYC, the Maggie Flanigan Studio was founded by Maggie in 2001 to fill what she saw as a substantial gap in American actor training. The studio is rooted in the belief that a rigorous and inspiring conservatory-based training program should remain small, intimate, and nurturing while challenging students to meet the highest professional expectations. MFS started with Maggie’s reputation as the clearest and most definitive teacher of the Meisner Technique, and has evolved over the last 16 years into the most respected professional actor training program in the United States.

*is often referred to as the best-known of Meisner's first generation teachers,

So basically, she’s kind of a big deal! She called our scene to go up first (cold sweats pour over my body). I tried to remember to breathe and to ignore the sound of her pen on the notepad in addition to the voice of failure in my head. By the end of our scene, I couldn’t recall how on earth we got there and felt like I had taken a ride on an emotional theme park ride. Maggie said she’d never seen an interpretation of the scene like we’d done it (which, i’m now curious how it’s been done in the past) and that aside from a few things that would need to be adjusted if it were to be put on stage, she decided to not give us any of her notes and that we should feel good about our work and connection to one another. Success!

My partner and I were given one final scene to do for the remaining two classes. It’s another love scene between a young Christian couple on their wedding night. It takes place in rural Florida in 1960. She’s recently paralyzed and he’s a preacher. The entire play takes place up in a treehouse during what turns out to be a hurricane. The play is called Sweet Storm, written by Scott Hudson and is beautiful. I’ll write another entry soon updating you on how that went (it will be a shorter post, I promise). Thank you for reading and supporting me!

Love,
SS

Looking for Laura Wingfield

I’m one month away from celebrating my second year in New York. Do you know what else I’m going to celebrate? The fact that I get to stay in my tiny, yet peace-filled, Brooklyn apartment for another year. That may not seem like a big deal to you, but an annual move has become somewhat synonymous with my life for over a decade now. I’ll spare you the details, but in addition to staying put, another huge blessing/miracle is that I will be paying LESS than what I started out paying! 

This past year has been filled with hard work, creativity, failures, laughter, adventure and lots of emotions. I’ve been enrolled in a two-year acting conservatory program in Manhattan since September 2015. It’s hard to believe that I will finish the program in a month and half. I’ve been pushed creatively and emotionally beyond what I thought my capacity was, and lived to tell the tale. It hasn’t been easy or necessarily fun for that matter. However, I believe this program is exactly what my life needed. My current scene (for class) is an excerpt from Tennessee Williams’, The Glass Menagerie. I spend most of my free time dissecting the character of Laura Wingfield. Bringing her to life this past month has been my favorite experience to date in classroom 803 on Monday and Thursday evenings. I’ll tell you more about it the next time I see you. We are working on monologues as well which has it’s own set of challenges, but I’m grateful for the opportunity to learn. 

As far as how I make money, I’m working odd jobs as often as I can which sometimes makes for long days. The good news is, there’s a lot of hustle in this city. Many people are chasing big dreams and have a lot of ambition, so I often feel like i’m in good company on those long days/weeks. Let me be clear, I have bad days and get frustrated by the momentum. Overall though, I will never ever regret this time in my life. 

FOR FUN:

In entertainment news, I recently watched the 2016 movie, A Monster Calls. Most of you have probably not heard of the movie or novel it’s based off of (by Patrick Ness), but if you can get your hands on it, I highly recommend it. I’d describe it as a kids movie for adults, dealing with the subject of grief through the eyes and mind of a young boy. Grief translates though, no matter the age. It’s a beautiful movie and score. It will come as no shock to those who know me that i’ve seen Beauty and the Beast twice in theaters. I thoroughly enjoyed the escape with characters and songs that delight me to the core. The tv show i’m hooked on at the moment is Veep and I devoured Big Little Lies. I’ve been noncommittal to books lately, so i’ll give a shoutout to the S Town podcast which had me hooked within minutes. 

I will be back with an update for May. Thank you for reading!

Love,
SS